dance with me forever

www.binifitriani.blogspot.com

2010-06-01T13:39:00.005+07:00

i've put my self back together again :)

follow me back, here

now find me

2009-12-08T02:41:00.005+07:00

h e l l o bloggers,

its been a while since my last post, and today i showed up with a lot of things to catch up about my life.

well, i know i've been hiding, i choose to run away than to sit and face the truth.

i'm running away from my self. i skipped november. i wanna skip process. i want an instant healing.

i wont updating this blog anymore.

i have to moving out, moving on.

so find me. i'll be anywhere.

love,

b i n i

break my heart and give me yours.

2009-12-08T01:55:00.007+07:00

its been a while since i'm leaving multiply, my first love dedato, dance with me forever, and my real life. things are too hard for me i dont wanna feel it. well, sort of drama, but its so f-ing true. sad and true. and i try not to exaggerate things, but in the same time i'm trying real hard to be honest. to my self. some people who always got the time is already knows the story behind these all. i guess i dont wanna talk about it anymore.

well, i really misses you guys.

seperti lg sauna, udah engap2 tp gak pernah cukup dan ga pengen keluar.

i should stop this, playing hide and seek with myself, feeling enough and going outside. dance with me

i'm leaving

2009-12-08T01:51:00.003+07:00

mom please dont cry. take care

meet me before 24

2009-12-08T01:36:00.003+07:00

thankyou for today ya @sugarscars ,please keep growing old with me♥.monica hapsari gak aseeeek gak pnya twitter @imanfattah ,please dehh!!!!

numbers.prove it, its just it.

2009-12-07T22:26:00.003+07:00

taking busway,its been a while since the last time.enjoying my self with the crowd and ratatat on my playlist

bandung, nur & dodi's wedding

2009-12-07T22:00:00.003+07:00

congratulation nur & dodi.

may you both live happily ever after.

oh i'm so tanned.

i've put my trust on u

2009-12-07T21:59:00.000+07:00

will u please do the same?just rethink about why on earth i'd do things that hurts u? u know how much i care,don't u?

bang! bang! bang!

2009-12-07T21:44:00.005+07:00

I fly like paper, get high like planes

If you catch me at the border I got visas in my name

If you come around here, I make 'em all day

I get one down in a second if you wait

I’m Gonna make somebody love me

2009-12-07T21:19:00.015+07:00

When I woke up tonight
I said I'm gonna make somebody love me
I’m Gonna make somebody love me

amoristia bachelorette party

2009-12-07T21:19:00.011+07:00

planning a runaway

2009-12-07T21:17:00.003+07:00

thank you wiza :)

oh she's so beautiful!

2009-12-07T21:14:00.002+07:00

had a wonderful dinner with tante M. champange do the talking :) ♥ ♥ ♥

thinkin what tante M told me about how she feels, and admiration, and beliefs. exactly agreed and thinking and feeling the same way too :(

please dont do this to me

2009-12-07T21:13:00.006+07:00

now i got allergic. too much hard make up for the whole week. i am so not a model material. well, i failed at heights requiment too x)

a brother will always be a brother, forever

2009-12-07T20:56:00.003+07:00

its nice & relax sitting next to kakak while he's driving,cursing,smoking,bbm-ing, singing.its been a while since the storm. gemukmu kakak.

andaman sea

2009-12-07T20:03:00.006+07:00

tell me,

2009-12-07T19:58:00.006+07:00

what real love is.

dedato, my last day of 2009

barely breathing. i can't cry hard enough.

2009-12-07T19:58:00.005+07:00

3 country and 4 city in 18 hours. 3 times in the air. now, prepare for SCARY THINGS. well, happy HELL-o-ween everybody

aloe vera and hugo comfort me today.

2009-12-07T19:48:00.004+07:00

you don't want to try anything. if you don't try anything, you can't fail.

find me in the darkness

2009-12-07T19:24:00.002+07:00

rasanya kaya pengen nembak gebetan yang udah punya pacar.muleessssssssssss5:14 AM Oct 25th from UberTwitter

thank you. what a warm 4 hours conversation. so get up stand up! and IDEAS of course! ♥10:23 AM Oct 25th from UberTwitter

In your dream, stranger!

2009-12-07T19:02:00.008+07:00

Go out&smell the rain for me.Touch the ground&feel me walking.In the same ground,in the same land,can't see u,can't smell u, can't touch u..

take care of me, love

2009-12-07T18:59:00.002+07:00

dine in marsche feels like in europe

2009-12-07T18:55:00.002+07:00

sugarscars & crush, julesy & jealouxy

2009-10-27T20:29:00.004+07:00

2009-10-27T18:01:00.000+07:00

sweethearts, i wish they didn't see the sadness in my eyes

2009-10-20T16:14:00.007+07:00

wake up and living my life again.for today.

☑ wake up so early tidy up my room
☑ wash the dishes, mop the floor, clean the entire house.
☑ collecting the dirty clothes
☑ drop them at the laundry
☑ buying airplane ticket for my cousin's wedding at my hometown
☑ paying all the bills. electricity, debt, etc
☑ dropping the car at car saloon
☑ BIG FAT body treatment package at saloon. creambath, body scrub & spa, manicure & pedicure. feels like re-born :)
☑ groceries shopping
all DONE :)

☑ late lunch & talk with nareswari. having ice cream 4 days in a row. i have to stop!
☑ late dinner with unejune and meeting the only Nasution brother.
☑ someone read me tarot cards. speechless.
☑ and my bestfriend chacha & khemod engaged today!!! Congratulations baby ♥ love you both

and a quote that choked me today: "A dream we dream together is reality."John Lennon.
sadly and unfortunately its not for me. maybe i'm just a fool i thought we was planning and dreaming together, apparently i was planning my whole life to someone that doesn't count me in on his life.

hide me. anywhere.

2009-10-20T11:46:00.015+07:00

nesting here and there. lock myself at home, even worst, at my bedroom. i dont want to be found. the only good thing is to see my brother finally got somebody to share with and forgetting his too sexy & pretty ex. so i call him, my good friend, to accompany me to the movie to watch the barsterds, while he's still spending the saturday night at his girlfriend's house..hahah..i hope the girlfriend wouldn't mind :)

thank you

we just love the same girl too much. sweet ♥

2009-10-20T11:44:00.007+07:00

there's another earthquake hit jakarta today. its's dedato aerobic day, listening to new order's perfect kiss all over, having sushi dinner with the eldest sister of Nasution :)) @amoristia filled my blank spot that night. talking about the "drugs" that dont work anymore, that nearly killed me, that i nearly overdose, and about the same girl we love too much, and burning the scars and do plastic surgery. talk about thing called life.

then join her fiance at drum and bass gig.

nothing really. i'm just, running again.

happiness is a strong cocktail

2009-10-16T11:18:00.007+07:00

and also a big cup of baskin robins ice cream :))

take a good care to you too & see you again sometime

2009-10-15T11:43:00.012+07:00

babysitting aimee while her mom went to singapore. it means, no need of killing so much time or not to let my self too tired
to even think, anymore. yaay! sleepover for 2 days!

i've switch everything off that night. having my 1st 8 hours sleep in the last 2 weeks. mindless sleep, mindless heart, less expectation
& stop beliving. just please don't say words i don't need to hear, and I'll stop asking you things that I know you
don't want to hear. should i stop fooling, and start listening? no.not now, please.

steal the moon for me. i'm too afraid of the dark. I'll tell you the whole story. I promise this time.
workin' on another airport project. so excited because first, i got the full control of it :) and, second, its my hometown's airport.

accidentally having matching outfit with cici. and..its approved! OMG. wish me luck. meeting with the girls at blumchen.

don't touch me there. and please don't do it on purpose.
its just not the right time.okay? thank you. or maybe its enough.

Its funny and strange. Wedding parties.

2009-10-12T17:13:00.005+07:00

farah adisti & rangga danu's wedding

Oh, and its so funny with "hi" and "single?" And "umm..yeah, single."

an affair to remember

2009-10-12T17:12:00.033+07:00

heartbreak hotel. @kitssy @sugarscars @jul3sy @unejune @amoristia i only have masterhugs and visakisses card for the weekend payment, please take it :)

3+10+13

2009-10-12T17:12:00.015+07:00

same different.is it only takes a single spark?

fire man and the burned burden house

2009-10-12T17:09:00.003+07:00

A better relation doesn't depend upon how good understanding we have,it rather depends upon how good we are at avoiding misunderstandings

and I know the drugs won't work

2009-10-12T16:43:00.009+07:00

my former colleague, Alia & Gigin's Wedding Party at Bandung

and I know it just makes me worse, and yes I hope I'll see your face again

timakacih kaka dhea sayang sudah di potoin..♥♥♥

morning call

2009-10-09T11:40:00.001+07:00

someone please put some barrier at the edge of that cliff..

happiness is a warm gun

2009-10-09T11:29:00.008+07:00

burger, beer, chocolate milk, tea, under the tuscan's sun, yoda, mido's bite

"never put your happiness in other's hand no matter how much you love them, and be happy just by being you" thank you agnikarma

how far would you go

2009-10-06T22:02:00.001+07:00

to be with her

hide me

2009-10-06T22:01:00.003+07:00

in your apartment. take care of me.talk to me. comfort me. ease my tears away

Dear Heart, please be cooperative today. thank you.

2009-10-06T21:53:00.013+07:00

amusement park. brokenheart helps you ease the thrills away. you wont afraid of anything anymore, open my eyes so wide.this doesn't thread me anymore. its so impressive what an empty mind could do..raise up my hands, amuse my self, and it doesn't feel that hurt anymore.well, for today.

Happy 21st B'day DEDATO,my first love. Happy B'day ibuFIEFI ♥ let's DO FUN!

this is my heart,

2009-10-06T21:51:00.001+07:00

and its broken :(

put me in the freezer

2009-10-06T21:50:00.005+07:00

hard travel over the atmosphere then lost in the outer space.infinite.sadness

at the highest heights and the lowest low. die stube. ambulances. laughin' while cryin'

did you know that i was never living

2009-10-06T21:45:00.006+07:00

when you're not around? i was killing time and working hard about what so called 'our masterplan'. letting you go is my act of trust . i'm hoping i'll only get to truly keep what i give away. letting you go to reach out your dreams , and wishing hard for our tomorrows. i was always at you back. encourage and support you no matter what. no matter how far the distance will run between us. its my act of trust. did i push you too hard? did i ever give you not enough space? did i ever took you for granted?
and did you know that you broke my heart right after i found out what dreams and future truly means for me?

see with your eyes, not your heart.

2009-10-06T21:41:00.006+07:00

Hell'O Jakarta, surprise me!

its so strange seeing my own design being a cover of "under construction" of the project. so happy :)

home.

2009-10-06T21:15:00.005+07:00

where the heart is.

you know it means a lot for me

2009-10-06T21:13:00.002+07:00

what do you want? what should i do? :(

poignant

2009-10-06T21:11:00.004+07:00

sometimes people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.

feels like cassie doing the whole tube of tablets

2009-10-06T21:08:00.007+07:00

having fun with @fatimahbin @trans studio ♥
rockin'tug. feels like cassie doing the whole tube of tablets.

moura & leisha

2009-10-06T21:03:00.005+07:00

its warming my heart seeing my girlfriends turns from a neurotic highschool heartbreaker into married women,
into beautiful mothers to beautiful baby girls..love you girlfriends!

meet julesy, alzaidy, ajpk

2009-10-06T20:57:00.003+07:00

the thing is why didn't you fought for me?

2009-10-06T20:56:00.000+07:00

oh my big fat loud neurotic drama family x|

2009-10-06T20:53:00.008+07:00

Okay, here we go agaiiiiin

2009-10-06T20:44:00.005+07:00

hirosima.

meeting julesy and his brother, jaka. and yes, i am totally a reverse psychological person.

minal aidzin wal faidzin

2009-10-06T18:41:00.009+07:00

i wish you were here with us, celebrating the moment. and i wish i could be there with you,
sharing this precious moment, with people you love the most.

Happy Lebaran Horraayy ♥

2009-09-21T01:09:00.000+07:00

Sent from my BlackBerry® smartphone from Sinyal Bagus XL, Nyambung Teruuusss...!

cork and screw

2009-09-16T18:35:00.002+07:00

its my heart talking

2009-09-16T18:30:00.000+07:00

thank you @tinymarzuki for being santaclaus in the end of ramadhan. irwanteam pass.back to work :)12:29 AM Sep 17th from UberTwitter in reply to tinymarzuki

pepenero with @rorodinda @adityaptedja @dhearahmatriana

I wish I live with my parents so I can spend all of my money more for traveling.

2009-09-16T17:07:00.019+07:00

I wish I don’t have to pay the bills of the electricity, the maid, the household equipments, gas, food, security cover, etc etc. i need mooore money!! lol. Totally random.

I spend almost 24 hours of my Sunday watching SKINS. And totally fell in love with Cassie and the-too-bad-he's-gay-cause-he's-super-good-looking Maxxie. Super amazed about how it delivered so intimate, i mean, you can really feel the friendship between them, love, lust, lunacy, poignant, and all.

maybe they would not reflect "everyone's teenage life" but I'm really sure some of us really get a brief and epigrammatic nostalgic about their "teenage/youth" moment and totally admiring the show, and of course particularly enjoyed the fact that it was heartbreaking, ironically beautiful, and sad, and perfectly hurtful.

However, i also get a brief memories about Richard Brownlie Marshall and Sofia Ascoli!! well, i guess its because the british accents and the-swearing-all-the-time thingy..hahaha..oh my dearest two, i missed you too much little-fxxxxrs!!

oh, and if you read this rich rich, please tell sof sof to stop writing about europe on my facebook wall!! x))

when I say jump, you said how high?

2009-09-15T17:33:00.006+07:00

One day i woke up and think that maybe I ought to talk to a Long Distance Relationship expert. It's getting harder these days. Sometimes I'm trapped in a great doubt I can cry all day. Or sometimes, I could cry all day, without even know whats wrong with my self. Or maybe I'm just a bad analysis to my self, never thought that I just miss him so much

Or maybe goodbye isn't that easy. I kept thinking about things I don't understand. Or things I think too hard to ask, or to discuss. And its so sad to find how weak and fragile my mind is. I do loose my head, for the sake of my heart. And i always choked. The time is up. I'm just full of anger. and sorrow.

No one will lose anyone. because no one owns anyone.

i know, life is good. but waiting is sucks.

feels like crying.all the time.

2009-09-15T16:47:00.003+07:00

another buka puasa with the company's partner, the supplier, this time.

oh and Dear Ruddy, happy birthday! i wish you always happy & success.
in mind, in heart, in social life, in career, and in bed. loove you! 1000kisses.

say hello to ♥beautiful baby leisha♥

2009-09-15T16:14:00.003+07:00

oh, and my best friend, meilani is giving birth to leisha last sunday!!

Congratulation my @meilanich & @amandokal
SO HAPPY for u guys!!OMG, I'm an auntie again to a very beautiful baby girl ♥♥♥

shooo shooooo go away bad feelings..

2009-09-15T16:10:00.004+07:00

RT @moodspiral: bukpusber at cazasuki with @duaanam @sugarscars @kitssy @binifitriani @chikalicia dll yg gak pny twitter.4:27 AM Sep 12th from UberTwitter

don't say words you didn't mean to say..

2009-09-15T16:02:00.005+07:00

a 10 hours trip jakarta-bandung-jakarta with adit.

will you still love me tomorrow?

2009-09-15T12:39:00.005+07:00

buka puasa with the company's partner, the contractor.
with unidentified pork bakpao. SO great!! -.-

and a meeting with girlfriends late at night. hope to comfort julesy's broken heart.
you can get through this all dear, i'm really sure!

brightspot market

2009-09-15T12:00:00.004+07:00

julesy's bbq party (with british accent)

2009-09-14T23:55:00.006+07:00

i trust in you and fall as well

2009-09-06T13:49:00.009+07:00

i'm so proud of you oh heartbreaker

we are family

2009-09-06T13:41:00.008+07:00

hey, its 8 am already!!

2009-09-06T13:23:00.006+07:00

lets go hooooooooooooooooooooooooome!!

this is what happen the night before..
a very late brainstorming for an 8am presentation the next morning.

forgive us, mother earth

2009-09-03T01:37:00.006+07:00

and help us GOD.

7.5 quake scares residents, but no casualties have been reported.

i need a new haircut

2009-09-02T20:25:00.002+07:00

tokyo summer wine - narita airport (day 6)

2009-09-02T16:59:00.002+07:00

tokyo summer wine - disneysea -yokohama (day 5)

2009-09-02T16:19:00.009+07:00

tokyo summer wine - meiji - yoyogi - harajyuku - karaokekan (day 4)

2009-09-02T00:00:00.011+07:00

“ I pray for good health, safe travels and fun journeys,
May I have the courage to follow my heart,
Find adventure and embrace new people.
I pray for my family and friends.
May the wind always be at their backs "

tokyo summer wine - asakusa - ueno - shinjuku - meiji (day 3)

2009-09-01T23:01:00.015+07:00

“ I pray for good health, safe travels and fun journeys,May I have the courage to follow my heart,Find adventure and embrace new people.I pray for my family and friends.May the wind always be at their backs “

tokyo summer wine - ginza-shinjuku (day 2)

2009-09-01T19:51:00.005+07:00

meet up with the kitten from picked pics and stephie from fashionation

complete story coming up next. oh i need more time in a day!!!

tokyo summer wine - roppongi, shibuya (day 1)

2009-08-27T12:00:00.012+07:00

me & my girlfriend went tokyo, 2 weeks ago. here some pictures

if you have multiply account, you can read the complete story, here

dont you just love goodbyes?

2009-08-10T01:40:00.004+07:00

MEW - java rockin land
august 9th 2009

i gave you all the benefits of all the doubts i had

weekend at the office

2009-08-08T22:31:00.002+07:00

high mind, talking about ideas

cut///copy

2009-08-08T03:28:00.000+07:00

middle mind, talking about events

top it, lock it, polka dot it

2009-08-03T00:30:00.006+07:00

finally the bf back from work at 10. then he took me out for supper. he just too exhausted
and devastated with work, so nothing so fun to tell.

the jealous project

2009-08-03T00:28:00.005+07:00

when you laid down with me, you never slept that night

it feels like in "lost in translation" movie, stranded all day, in a hotel room, while the bf is working from so early morning till almost late at night. the difference ; i'm not in tokyo at the moment.mm..anytime soon, hopefully :)). doing nothing. no shower.no tv, only 7 hours skype-ing with kitssy and ekinitami. thankyous dear..happy to talk to you both.really really really!

xxcr xcelsian

2009-08-03T00:27:00.002+07:00

found it on the bf's macbookpro. oh i miss them all.

love like a sunset

2009-08-02T15:11:00.014+07:00

PHOENIX wolfgang amadeus phoenix, August 1st, 2009

Bengkel Night Park

PHOENIX AWESOME!!

"say h-a-p-p-y and give me high 5, girls! "

i think i'd better run, run, run, run.. you didn't catch me fallin' fallin' fallin' fallin' fallin'

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2009-08-01T00:22:00.002+07:00

he's sleepin' like a baby while i do these things :D

happy birthday @rivaramanda , wishing you'll stay with me till we peed ourselves & we forgot each other's name :) loooove you cibuijeleeeek!!

11:59 PM Jul 31st from UberTwitter

like going home

2009-07-31T15:09:00.007+07:00

the boyfriend is in town for work..horrraaay :) i miss you so piyopiyooooo! meet up with him after he's done with the work thingy, and chitchat over coffee with kong & wanda..its been a while, its so comforting, it makes me sleepy, really. like going home :')

deal with it.like i deal with our situation.not all your wish could come true, right?

you said that sometime ago.

shuffle in diagonal

2009-07-30T15:02:00.002+07:00

nothing particular.

do you realize?

2009-07-29T00:51:00.000+07:00

I DONT UNDERSTAND THE WAY YOU'RE THINKING

2009-07-28T13:58:00.001+07:00

On my period.C to the R to the A to the N to the K to the Y.CRANKY.Your joke is not funny.AT ALL.

"Promise to yourself to be strong.. to be as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own."

share your bed with me

2009-07-26T02:20:00.000+07:00

spend almost the whole saturday doing nothing. only sleep and watching dvds. and then to a bbq party at kmd's place. it was tasya's farewell party, one of kmd's housemate

oh, and did i told you about ethel rossel? she's a girlfriend of my friend, aditya. she's also a photographer from a cruise line. she's Peruvian. she's gonna stay at my place, until next month. say hi to her :) i just realize that i really am missing this kinda feelings, sharing bed with somebody. and now, like, i miss my former housemate so much :)

stolen kisses

2009-07-26T02:08:00.002+07:00

how far is far for you?

2009-07-24T17:07:00.003+07:00

influenza.i'm sick. i need you to hold me all day till i feel better :)

yesterday is history. tomorrow is a mystery. but today is a gift, and that is why it's called the present

2009-07-21T16:49:00.005+07:00

a very cute birthday present from people i really do loove :)

and kissseeess from me!! (pardon my-not-so-nice-kissy-face)

i ask why, and you lied.

2009-07-21T16:13:00.011+07:00

a quite weekend. feeling unwell.a very late dinner not yet supper at toscana. then a spontaneous traveling to bandung in the middle of the night. meet some friend for beer 124km away from home. but it was nice.

9 to 9 with the sailor, irlan barlan kardia. oh, kitssy, i hope you don't mind dear, i borrow him for the night :)

what i want to wear at fifi & bobby's wedding. but, everyone is complaining about the bow, and the-too-much-skin-to-show-in-the-afternoon-dress

and finally this is what i wore to the party. i look pregnant in that dress -.-'
btw, congratulation fifi & bobby ! :)

oh heartbreaker, oh dream maker

2009-07-18T18:05:00.008+07:00

dont blame it on the weather

2009-07-16T19:52:00.004+07:00